> I've been telling myself lately to get over it and go get baptized, but I know that if I do it just because I'm being bugged about it by my consience or my mother, it *won't* mean anything to me. I'm trying to work myself up to it.. because I really want to want it when I go for it.
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> And I know that might not make sense, but it's how I am. Right now I'm still struggling to get used to the idea of being baptized.

That sounds a lot like the thoughts currently going through my mind right now (concerning my response to this), although baptism is a bit different than Communion and Confirmation. But I think my mind is trying to follow the same logic. I feel that if I went for it now, it's simply to do it, not because I really want it. And, like you, I want to want it.

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> ria

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