> ... but not in the physical sense. I'm talking in the spiritual sense, here. I'm getting baptized this Sunday. I'm excited, nervous, and in awe all in one.

And I wish I could be there, but four hours is a bit hard to travel. You know I'll be thinking of you, though. :)

> If you haven't been baptized, and you're a Christian - why not?

I wanted to be baptized when I was around six or seven years old. We attended church in a neighboring town then, and the pastor refused to baptize me. He said that because I was so young, by the time I was thirteen, I wouldn't remember; it would never mean anything to me.

Of course, I find it ironic that now, at sixteen, I full well remember that day, sitting inside that sanctuary, looking at the decorations inside the church. I remember vividly how he told me I wouldn't remember.

I've been in a Christian environment all my life, but only accepted Christ at twelve years (May 23, 1998; yes, I do remember the exact day). Baptism hasn't been something that's been pushed on me.. but ever since I was refused that one time, I've been wary.

I've been telling myself lately to get over it and go get baptized, but I know that if I do it just because I'm being bugged about it by my consience or my mother, it *won't* mean anything to me. I'm trying to work myself up to it.. because I really want to want it when I go for it.

And I know that might not make sense, but it's how I am. Right now I'm still struggling to get used to the idea of being baptized.

> Sosi"at least I'm not getting baptized in a swimming pool"qui

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