> I hate posting my self-pity nonsense here. I
>hate subjecting you people to this. But right
>now, I just don't know where else to go.
>
> Last night, Amanda told me that part of my
>problem is that I don't get angry enough. There
>was a lot of other conversation, and I had been
>pressuring her to find faults with me and tell
>me what they are because I couldn't accept that
>she could think I am wonderful and deserve the
>best and that she would still dump me. She was
>not doing anything awful to me, just trying to
>give me what I was asking for.

Can I give you some advice that someone gave me once? If someone says they don't like blueberries, you don't ask them *why* they don't like blueberries--they just *don't*. Asking why doesn't accomplish anything. It doesn't matter that everyone you know *loves* blueberries. This person doesn't, and probably can't put in words why they don't like them. It's nonsensical to keep asking them why they don't like them, and it accomplishes nothing.

-- Dave