>But as I learned more and more about science, morality, human nature, etc., every teaching about God I had ever heard began to fit less and less in my mind, and secular viewpoints and explanations began to make more and more sense to me.

Yeah, that's the way such things always happen. Virtually no one changes opinion for a single reason. It takes many converging reasons to build or demolish a worldview. "Time makes more converts than reason."

Pascal's Pensees, since he never collected them into a book, are much better for this purpose than if he had lived long enough to finish the work. They are hundreds of short, profound thoughts of the sort that could make or break a belief. Plus, it also contains Pascal's Wager, which a vastly stronger and subtler argument than is typically claimed. The best edition is Peter Kreeft's "Christianity for Modern Pagans".

For me, the book that crushed my modernist assumptions was G.K. Chesterton's "Orthodoxy". Despite the cold-, dry-sounding title, it's one of the most vibrant books ever. This follows from Chesterton's realization that orthodoxy is the source of all romance and adventure in the world.

Sorry if you're getting overloaded on reading suggestions.

Remember also that humans have only three loyalties: to Truth, to Goodness, and to Beauty. Any belief system that separates them can never satisfy.

-Gabe