Hi I haven't posted on here in a long time either. Mainly cause I just don't have time these days to do things like that until night time and Grishny mans the computer at night. Which is why if I want to get online I do it while the baby is sleeping or stay up way too late and do it at night. I saw your post and couldn't NOT say something. I know double negative. I am not offended by your words just sad. Sam gave some wonderful advise. It sounds to me like you really are not sure what you believe anymore. When you grow up in church it is easy to go through the motions for a long time and then one day you wonder why your doing it. My advice is read the Bible. Let the Word of God speak for itself. And like Sam said talk to your pastor. Be honest about how your feelings. In this case I really don't think a debate is the answer. You are doing some soul searching and no person can really do that for you.
Mrs_Grishny