I've gotten so used to my depression that I only cry when I feel really down.

I don't know if this will make you feel any better, but I'm going to say it anyways. I'm in the exact position (well, almost) as you are, and I kind of know what you're going through. I'm usually a very happy, peppy person. Lately, I've been dealing with so much (from deaths to social problems) that it's just been coming out more. I'm in that state of depression right now. I guess I wanted to say that you're not the only person who's going through what you're going through. And there are people out there that understand. They're not always your best friend or a doctor. Sometimes, it's the people you rarely talk to and have gone/are currently going through the same thing you are. Sometimes it's easier to talk with people who are in the same boat as you than talking with close friends. I've talked to one person so much lately because she's in the same boat as me. And we rarely talked before this. I find it gives you a better feeling if someone can say, "I know what you're going through" and actually mean it.

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> I'm going to regret posting this, as I always do when I make one of my rare posts. I feel unworthy of this message board, because I never post anything of significance or take part in serious discussions.

There are a lot of people that feel this way. I do all the time. Sometimes I feel like no one's going to read it or that no one's going to reply. Sometimes I fear that the whole Rinkworks community is going to go against me on something or that I'll offend someone in some way and they'll be mad at me forever. Possibly, they might try to get other people mad at me. It's just how I feel. But it seems that a lot of people feel that way. Don't worry about feeling unworthy of the message board because I see that you're not. Probably out of everyone that posts here, I'm the one that brings the least amount in. You're so incredibly worthy of this message board. I hope that you don't regret for posting it. It was valuable to the subject at hand.

~x~Band-"Stupid depression...if you don't leave me alone, I'm going to get you with my rubber bat!"Aids~x~