I broke a promise today.

I blame myself for it, really, since I have no right to blame anyone else for miscomings that I should have been able to avoid.

As I feel when I am not true to myself, as myself, any instance of a broken word or broken promise coming from me is pure shame and disgrace, not to mention complete degredation of my character.

But what if that promise was made to someone who did not know of it?

Some may argue that it wasn't really a promise at all. They may argue that if I never gave away my word I may not have broken it.

But it was an important promise. And I broke it. Nothing else really matters after that.

Tonight was sheer disgrace for my peers, my family and myself. I cannot forgive myself for so large a miscoming.

I lied to myself tonight, I made a promise I did not keep; I am scum.

I broke a promise. I cannot be forgiven.