> > Don't answer this if you don't want to, but you said you wish you believed in God. What would it take to make it possible for you to?
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> Well, my parents probably would have had to have drilled it into my head when I was younger, I would need proof to believe now....
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> > In answer to all those other things. . .well, I know the only reason I'm who I am is because of God. I don't want to get started in a religious debate either, because I don't feel really sure of a lot of things right now. But isn't that what faith is all about? Just because I don't feel sure doesn't mean much. I try to live based on what I know and not what I feel, emotions are so. . .untrustworthy. If I ever doubt in God's existence, all I have to do is look at the miserable person I was before I met Him and I know He's there. The uncertainty comes with other things, church, people, my future, my family. Anyway. . .that's just me, what I'm going through, I don't know if it has relevance to you guys at all.
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> > My family is important to me, too, and certain other people--well, one other person especially (you know who you are). Right now I don't feel particularly close to my family, but I do love them a lot.
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> > Now for my deep and difficult question:
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> > Have you ever been placed in a position you felt totally unequipped for? What did you do?
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> uhhhhhh, i don't exactly know what you mean...
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> > ali "hope all that made sense" ssa
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> Jimmy O"most of it"f York

Proof, I can't give you. I can suggest a good book, though. . .do you read much C.S. Lewis? Mere Christianity brings a lot of things in perspective, at least it did for me. I don't want to sound like I'm pressuring you or anything, but if you're interested, it's an awesome book.

As for that other thing, maybe I should explain some more why I thought of that. My family seems to look up to me as the "religious one." It's a title I'm coming to resent, I don't think it's very appropriate and I certainly don't feel like it's my place. It's starting to get to me, but I don't know if I should say anything to them. If I did, it'd probably come out like, "STOP IT! PLEASE!" I don't know if that would really help anything. I guess what I want to know is, would you just do the best you could, or would you try to step down?

ali "tired of being responsible" ssa