> Lire"my seventy-two cents"lyn

Lirelyn, I know it's tough to believe, but I am actually relieved to have my parents divorcing, and I don't really care about it one way or the other. It was bound to happen sooner or later, I suppose, what with all the infighting in the marriage. I guess it is taking a toll on my subsonscious, though, seeing as I've started getting depressed for no clear reason.

I do think it's a good idea to wait awhile before we adopt, however, so I can be settled into a new home and have gotten used to the change by the time I do.

The thing is, though, I am fifteen, and in a few years I'll be in college. So, the longer I wait, the less of a brother I will be to the child. Maybe I just picked the absolute worst time in my life to consider adoption... Damn. But, I don't want to be unfair to the kid and make him go through any more than he already has, AUGH! What do I do!?!? Choices suck. Wish I had a brother to begin with, like every single other person in my entire family (not kidding).

Basically, here's the deal: I don't want to miss out on the opportunity to be a good brother to someone, because that's something I have always, always wanted to do, and I would do anything to have that experience. I'll just see what happens after the dust clears from all these life changes.

At the same time, I want to be understanding and accepting of others' needs and feelings. I am really confused as to what to do.

-zK

If you read all of this, bravo!