> Is it natural to hate your job?
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> Now, I don't mean all the time. Sometimes, the job is perfectly fine. But is it natural to sometimes absolutely hate what you do, spending your time fixated on the desire to be anywhere else, doing anywhere else? And if so, how often?
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> I wonder, because I hate what I am doing right now. I absolutely despise it. I care nothing for it. It is debilitating and crushing and energy-draining to an extent that I've never before encountered. And the toll it takes on me interferes even outside of work, the only time I have to do what I wish I had time to do.
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> As pathetic and cheesey as it sounds, I need to create. Seven years ago I assembled my first ostinato, and since then the desire to use my creativity has been ingrained into my personality. Working a job where I cannot use that ability is suffocating the desire, and I can't help but think what would happen if I continue to seal that desire for the rest of my career.


You say you hate your job sometimes. Think about when, exactly--is it when doing certain tasks?--working with certain people?--is it even a certain time of day? Do you have any latitude to re-shape things to make it more tolerable? (I am least satisfied with my job during the mid-afternoon, for instance, so I try to save the easier or most enjoyable tasks for that time if possible).

If changing things around wouldn't really keep you from despising the job, then I guess you've discovered it's not the job for you. I think there's a difference between having occasional "hate it" moments at work (who doesn't?) and working at a job that doesn't suit your temperament.

And I guess that's one of the nice things about interning--a chance to "try out" the job, and see if it's a match for you or not.

Since even the most creative jobs have their non-creative aspects, perhaps the benefit you're going to get from this job will be along the lines of observing management or organizational styles, for instance, that you could apply later when you do find that creative job. If nothing else, it's not a total loss if it has pointed you in the direction you need to go.

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> The path I'm on now would eventually lead to a career that would more than likely sustain me financially. Is it selfish to ask for more, just to satisfy my own personal wants?


If you had a spouse, kids, mortgage, car payments, and elderly relatives depending on your paycheck, then yes, it might be selfish. But if it's just you and your goldfish, then I think we could safely call it "finding your niche in life" without having to call it selfish.


koalamom,whose parents did *not* get their money's worth out of six years of music lessons, apparently, because she'd never heard of an 'ostinato' before this post.