> I'm constantly feeling like no one cares about me or that I'm worthless. Unfortunately, this is one of those places. Here, I just don't feel like I really matter at all.

Of course you matter. You just got finished posting to the depression thread and seem to realize that these feelings of yours, as is the case with many people -- you aren't alone -- have more to do with brain chemistry than how anyone actually feels about you.

On the other hand, if I may be blunt, how much have you tried to be involved here? I definitely recognize your handle from your Murkon's Refuge game and posts to the hints board and here, and I've liked several. But I think I've seen you in the chat room maybe one time (maybe we just log in at different times?) and I haven't really ever gotten the sense that you wanted to involve yourself personally here. This one post of yours is the first I've seen that you ever had any interest in the community here other than for casual conversation.

It's a two-way street. You getting to know people isn't the same as them getting to know you. Maybe you're closer with others, but this goodbye post of yours was an odd thing for me to read, because you're pretty much a stranger to me, and I wasn't aware you had built a stronger relationship than that with anybody else. Don't get me wrong -- from what I can tell, you're pretty nice, and someone I think I would enjoy getting to know, given the opportunity, but you're a stranger to me nonetheless. What I'm trying to say is, I don't know what kind of relationship you expect to have had here by now. If you want friendships, there are unquestionably people here who would make good friends, but you have to be seeking them out.

Anyway, I wish you well, whatever the case.