> Good-bye everyone and thank you for everything.

This was a confusing and fairly disturbing post. Is everything ok? You're welcome to discuss whatever you please with me through email, if you wish, and I would urge you to at least speak with your parents and/or pastor about anything that may be distressing you.

From what I can tell of you by your posts on this forum, you're a remarkably intelligent and literate young lady who is, in moments of self-reflection, much too hard on herself.