It's not easy when you're too old for teen angst and too young for a mid-life crisis. Some of you already know I've been going through a reasonable amount of er...stuff...lately on the relationship front, and now I have a further worry in the rapidly approaching end of my job contract. My day job has been a six-month thing for the duration of the America's Cup racing, and it's all over in early March.

Well, today a permanent job opportunity with the same company popped up out the ground, so I whacked it with a CV, which I emailed right before typing this. I don't know yet if the opportunity will escape underground again, but hey, you gotta try!

This is giving me a lot of strife, because the job is located in San Francisco, and even if I get it I don't know if I want to move to the USA. The thought of leaving Coastguard and selling my boat, in addition to the huge hassles of such a move, is quite frankly terrifying. But at the same time, I have no idea at all what I could go into or what I'll end up doing if I stay here. I sort of feel like the world is going to end in March. It's only a month off, and then everything changes.

Not to mention the fact that I'll be losing my Internet connection. I have no intention of disappearing from RinkWorks forever, but it's just one more thing to worry about. *sigh* I knew I'd have to fork out for a home computer sooner or later, but I never realised it would be *solely* for the sake of a dozen or so people that I really like. :-)

I'm not sure why I'm telling you all this anyway, except that you can probably tell I'm feeling a bit low, and more apocalyptic than I ever was for the millennium. :-) I'd ask you all to keep your fingers crossed for me, but the truth is, I have no idea what I even *want* to happen. So, yeah, whatever.

Brunnen-"back to being silly any minute now"G