> I've lost the only person I've ever seemed to love. I'm
> getting brow-beat everywhere I turn by people who are telling
> me how much I screwed up THIS one. I feel physically, mentally,
> emotionally sick and deteriorated. Yet, you guys manage to
> make me laugh. I never get a chance to stew, thanks to
> Rinkworks. I'm not sure whether to be happy or even MORE
> depressed.

I think we've all been there a time or two. I know it's trite, but I'll say it anyway: things get better. All you can do is try to learn from the bad experiences and move on.

Good luck to you, man.