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> > What happens when it feels like it will never BE a memory?
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> That's when you do what I have to get myself to do and find a doctor. There are treatments, ranging from simple therapy to medication. I've been on anti-depressants for about half my life now, but I often find it hard to stay on them. Part of me thinks I can "handle" it without the medication, and part of me just doesn't want to have to go through the hassle of getting it and taking it.
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> I need to go through the hassle now.
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> -- Dave

*HUG*

I don't tell many people this, but about a year ago, I was put on Prozac to help with my depression. I felt weak, yes, because I was almost 18 years old and all my friends didn't seem to understand what I was feeling and going through. I had to stop taking it, though, when I lost 15 lbs. in about two or three weeks. And I am not a very big person to begin with, and the Prozac was so expensive that I couldn't afford it. So the doctor put me on a different anti-depressant that was similar to Prozac. It's hard to say if I lost much weight because I still hadn't gained much from taking the Prozac. But I had to stop taking that because, again, I couldn't afford it.

I was feeling fine until about a two months ago, when I got home from Maryland (after a disasterous attempt at being a nanny). I know I made the right decision about coming home. But when people ask so many questions about it, you begin to wonder if you broke some sort of promise. Sometimes, I feel I failed at doing something I was not cut out to do in the first place, and that is not a very encouraging thought.

My point, Dave, is that I know what you are going through. I'm here for you, anytime you need me. You're an awesome guy, Dave. What else can I say?

Mi"and I'm sorry, too"a